Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Come on home...

I've got a box full of bones and a brain that's inside out
empty hands longing for something to hold
and a dream hanging from the door post collecting dust.

In six days time
I'll be bag in hand
headed to the next town.

Every thing around me is saturated in you
your scent
your laugh
your hurt
your stains

I'm leaving this place and I'm never looking back
I've learned from the mistakes
of every Lot's wife I've met
you're the last one

You're the last one...

It's time to go home.

Friday, December 4, 2015

When your heart bleeds for more than you can hold...

This has been quite the year, quite the last six months actually. My life has been in this huge transition process and every time I think it's almost over God shows me another area where I need to make adjustments.

I'm starting to think that life in general is a constant adjustment process. Whether you're adjusting to a new job, a new addition to the family, a boyfriend, a spouse there's always adjustments to be made.

With that being said one area where I've made a lot of adjustments is what I allow to occupy my time. Since I started focusing less on things that in my opinion don't matter I've noticed that my heart has become so much softer to what I think are things that are closer to The Lords heart. So much so to the point where I'm starting to realize that I can't help everyone and I can't do everything even though I want too.

I feel called to ministry. With all of my heart and with every fiber of my being I feel like The Lord is calling me to spend my days pursuing his heart and leading souls to his kingdom. Now whether that means I pursue music ministry or become a missionary or something else I'm not sure but I know it's going to be a career that is centered around leading souls to him.

BUT I'm also really passionate about human trafficking, did you know that it's the third largest criminal industry in the world? Also I'm passionate about gun control and with the most recent incident in California being the 355th mass shooting in the country this year I think it's time for a change. Also I'm passionate about education and women's rights and global poverty and all of the kids around the world that don't have food to eat or access to a sanitary place to use the restroom.

My heart breaks for what's going on in this world and as much as I try to be strong there are times where I find myself lost in tears because of things I don't know how to stop but want too. So what do I do? What do you do when you want to help everyone?

Well, I think the first thing to do is to remember that just because you can't help everyone doesn't mean that you can't help someone. I feel very blessed to have a heart that's so moved by the world and what happens in it. I would much rather be the type of person that cries after writing another letter to politicians about gun control or fills their schedule with volunteer opportunities than someone who is unmoved by the tragedies that so often surround us.

I plan to seek God for what he wants me to dedicate my life too and I hope everyone who reads this does the same. Lets all aim to make the world a better place and begin everyday like we're on a mission to leave everyone we meet better than we found them.

We can't help everyone but that doesn't mean that we can't help someone. Below I've listed different organizations that I support that actively work to eliminate different issues in the world if you have a second please check them out and see how you can make a difference!

A21 Campaign: Aims to abolish injustice in the 21st century- A21.org

worldtoilet.org: A non-profit committed to improving toilet and sanitation conditions worldwide.

The Global poverty Project- Aims to end Global poverty by 2030 - globalpovertyproject.com

To Write Love on Her Arms - An organization dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide.  TWLOHA.com